As I sit here starting this post, I am unsure why I have butterflies in my stomach. I am experiencing a mixture of feelings — fear (of getting sucked in to too much time online) and excitment (about having a venue to express myself). So here I go…
We just returned from a wonderful family wedding in upstate NY (8 hour drive each way plus the extra time we spent fixing a flat tire on the way home yesterday). I don’t think I have ever seen a more relaxed or radiant bride. They are a wonderful couple and I predict many happy years together. We drove up on Friday and drove back on Sunday – definitely too much time in a car for such a short visit. We traveled with the 4 children but without the 5 dogs, who we usually take with us on vacation. This did make it easier for us and the children kept commenting on how much leg room they had!!! LOL
Throughout our drive, I found myself in a very introspective mood. This time of year often does that too me, as I prepare for my new homeschooling year. Also, I’ve been a bit down about my weight problem. (I feel like at age 40, I should have gotten a handle on this by now!!!) All this has led me to realize that my problems (in the midst of my many blessings) stem from a LACK OF SELF-DISCIPLINE and an over abundance of WILLFULNESS. I remember reading a quote recently from St. Therese of the Child Jesus. It said something like, "It is not necessary to have a lot of courage. You just need to act is if you do." It made me wonder if that would work with self discipline. What if I just acted as if I had an abundance of self-discipline, would that work???
Well this post doesn’t really have a point – hence the title – but it feel good to have written, even if I’m the only one who’s listening. 
You are not the only one who is listening! I am here and so glad to have you back online, particularly with me so far away.
[Please tell a certain very talented young lady that my daughters are very impressed with her writing.]
Welcome back!! I, too, struggle with my weight, it doesn’t seem like many do around me, why can’t I just be thin? It’s ok, we can pray for eachother!
God Bless you and keep up the great work you do!
I’m so glad you’re back online. I look forward to reading your posts again.
Gosh Heather I can really relate to this. I had a similar thought just the other day – I’m 40 why haven’t I gotten my weight under control by now? And why am I not more disciplined? I do think you’re on to something with the St. Therese quote. I’m going to think on that more.
Oh and welcome back1